I'm just saying that...

Sunday, 25 April 2010

  • I am not an individual. I am part of a mass.

    We look the same. Act the same. Talk the same. Eat the same. I bet somewhere within ten miles of my city there's another Chinese-American teenager in the exact economic, family, and academic situation as me. I live in an area where someone visually "cool" means acts happy or "positive" and wears layered hair with flipping side-bangs. Nothing wrong with that? Of course nothing's wrong with that. Who wouldn't want to fit in? I'm only pointing out that those characteristics emphasize the importance of personality in an era where people talk with a question-tone or a valley in their sentences, basically breathe Forever21 and Aberchrombie fashion, wear skinny jeans, text text text, and think they are hippies just because they listen to the Beatles.

Saturday, 19 September 2009

  • I think this represents my opinion quite well.

    Warning: The following contains sympathy for all of the three involved, so sorry, I'm not siding with Taylor for you to agree with me, nor am I siding with Kanye for you to angrily yell at me.

    I feel sorry for both Kanye West and Taylor Swift. Poor Taylor Swift, too shocked and appalled at Kanye's behavior and comparison that she didn't know how to fix her situation gracefully - embarrassing her more. At first I was also embarrassed for Kanye West ("Oh no... I hope everyone forgets this..." - apparently they didn't), but now I feel sorry for him even more than how I feel sorry for Taylor. A week after the awards, and blogs, news, and facebook applications still won't let his little (very inappropriate) outburst go.

    It's almost a week, peoples - give him a break, I think he learned his lesson.

    And no, I don't think Beyonce is "playing off" of Kanye's (very inappropriate) praising. (How do you know if Taylor isn't "playing off" this with all the media attention and sympathy?) We can't assume someone's intentions without them saying so. Therefore, when Kanye raved about Beyonce, she must have been pretty embarrassed too - just look at the criticism about her video in the previous comments, just because of Kanye's interruption. Maybe Beyonce's even losing popularity herself.

    Of course, the MTV awards is a big thing. Therefore, Taylor Swift had a little (big) moment of embarrassment on stage - and weeks of sympathy afterward or feeling bad that her little (big) moment was ruined or regretting being too shocked and not handling the situation appropriately without coming on stage a second time. And she wasn't the only one miserable afterward. Kanye had a little (also big) moment of enthusiasm - and weeks of receiving criticism and probably feeling mounds of guilt afterward.

    Am I really siding with Taylor Swift or Kanye West or Beyonce? No, I'm just saying how ridiculous is the amount of criticism that's aimed at this little moment on TV.

    So what is the appropriate response to this? Is it not right to criticize Kanye? No, it's right alright to criticize him, all this anger and humongous amount of criticism and Taylor's embarrassed and shocked face wouldn't have happened if Kanye had some self control. But enough is enough. Tune it down a little, peoples.

Monday, 14 September 2009

  • A little mistake and make a terrible difference...

    When I was doing my math homework. I was supposed to do "every 6th problem" from numbers 5-71. Okay, that's eleven problems - not too bad. But as I worked through the problems, the operations got harder and harder. I worked on these eleven problems for about... and hour. I went back and checked the assignment... "5-... 71"... uh oh. I did numbers 69 and 75, but not 71. So I recounted the numbers... again... and again. It wasn't until I decided that the teacher might've made a mistake and checked with a friend, did I realize that I went from number 47 to 51.

    "What I dumb mistake!" you say. Well, I had a tough, embarrassing, and tiring day, and after working on eleven problems for an HOUR, I'm hating myself for being so careless. So now I'm thinking "Why didn't I check? Why didn't I use a calculator? Why didn't I just count the numbers instead of adding them? Why didn't I... etc." So, yea, I'm just putting more burden on myself with regrets over this eensy weensy mistake, and making a big deal about it and ranting on how hard it is for me to do "every___ problem" because it is so easy to mess the numbers up...sighs. Okay, before I angrily REWRITE half my homework, I should get some reassuring quotes... let's see...

    Katherine Mansfield:
    "Make it a rule of life never to regret and never to look back. Regret is an appalling waste of energy; you can't build on it; it's only for wallowing in."

    Okay, now I'm regretting the fact that I'm regretting messing up the order. D'oh! Now I'm really regretting!

    Alright! No more of this nonsense... I must REWRITE half my darn homework.... wish me luck.... I hear a faint echo.

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Saturday, 05 September 2009

  • Why I want to become a doctor.

    No, it's not for the money. Heck, I can earn a lot more money by being a pilot or a celebrity. I want to be a doctor because of what it takes and what it will do. I can brace myself for the hard studies I might endure in college and challenges I will face while on the job, but when I save a patient or find out a cause of death (I might also like pathology... since I won't kill anyone) it'll all be worth it.

    Therefore, I want to go into the medical field because of how much I value life, and that's why everything I will learn in medical school be extremely important to me. When I become a doctor, I will have to expect the unexpected, meaning, I might need to draw all sorts of knowledge if a patient comes in with an uncommon symptom, not just effortlessly and mindlessly repeating a pattern of diagnoses, since that would be very very wrong and selfish of me. And when I become a doctor, I will never give up on a life.

    So... why would you (anyone there?) want to become a doctor?

Friday, 04 September 2009

  • Message from a Fan: Another SuperGirl (or for this year... HappyGirl) Competition is Over

    [Heheh.... this is just my opnion on my favorite singer from a Chinese version of American Idol.]

    Question: So... were you ever a fan of a celebrity/singer? Why?

    Another SuperGirl (HappyGirl just doesn't work for me in translation, sorry) competition is over, and again, my favorite competitor lost in the final rounds. I've watched the HuNan Channel since the summer of sixth grade, so it's been about four years. The first year I watched, I fell in love with BiBi. The second year... well, I wasn't a big fan of anyone in the competition. The third year... they weren't even girls, but I loved WeiChen (I will NOT tell his English name... it doesn't even make sense).

    This is my fourth year of watching, and at first I found XiaoYun (alright, her name is Michelle, but calling her that makes me feel weird) a little awkward at singing and kind of pushing the tom-boy style on purpose. Still, as the show progressed, I found her more captivating and curious. Maybe it was her strength and that fierce look that caught me, but whatever it is, I was hooked. So yea, I watched like any regular fan and I (and probably her bunch of other fans) were moved by a short documentary on her singing ambitions. Of course, I won't end up on a big stage like that (or maybe I will?) and although she got second place, I'd be real disappointed if she stop producing more songs in the future.

    By the way, I posted a message an hour after the actual SuperGirl show (I'm guessing China's showing is one hour earlier than the one in America) in English, since it's easier for me to express myself in English.
    - Hey, I'm a fan. [A few moments after I wrote this message, I think it got deleted. Apparently, I'm only supposed to write in Chinese... er.... which I don't feel like attempting.]


    This is what she looks like, if you're wondering... (probably not, though).


    So these are the competitors who I was a fan of in previous competitions... and I still am!


     




Monday, 24 August 2009

  • Self-boost: Tommorow er... (two weeks) will be a new day!

    I'm getting antsy for the new school year already, and I want to accomplish a heck of a lot this year. Yea, it's "only" sophomore year, but to me, in order to go to UCB, I must make every year count count count. However, every year it seems like I've wasted it.

    After every school year, I've felt like I haven't joined enough clubs, did enough service hours, gotten enough favor from the teachers, gotten good enough percentile grades to be in the top ranks... etc. all those things that although I'm already well-off in academics, I still haven't done enough to be the outstanding student, the one that always gets the top grades, the one that rarely goes on Facebook, the one whose demeanor naturally earns friends and favors... etc. No matter how hard I've worked, I couldn't be like those people, who I've always shared class periods with. I tried to copy their manners, clothing, study skills... etc. - nothing worked. I'm not going to do that anymore this year.

    Over the summer, I've achieved enough mentally for confidence for the beginning of the school year. However, what happens after the first few days will depend on how I will seize each day to accomplish more than my peers. This is what I plan to do: get a high score for the PSAT, carry through the SAT boot camp, work on SAT at home with Barron's, get to sleep by twelve (impossible, but I will work for it), limit my computer time (probably my biggest sacrifice... ever), read a book everyday, quit unnecessary YouTube (goodbye, NigaHiga. farewell, KeveJumba. I'll miss you, Happy Slip.), go to Tae Kwon Do every chance I get (oh gosh... I hope I make it out alive), get a club position (somehow), become section leader (man, I better)... the list goes on.

    That's heck of a lot to accomplish for me. I've never did so much - ever - in a school year, but why not try now? Burnout, here I come!

Saturday, 22 August 2009

  • Currently
    Chopin: Favorite Piano Works
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    This apparently shows how I don't have a life.

    Everyday, I would go on Facebook and comment on others' statuses and Feng-Shui my restaurant in Restaurant city. Now I realize how becasue of that, I have a very sad life. I so desperately need to communicate with others that I've come down to only commenting "Oh, I'm sorry that your house has termites" or "Congratulations!" when I rarely talk to them at school - very rarely.

    Sure, Facebook is a good way to communicate, but it has become my ONLY way to communicate. Maybe because I'm too busy with my own thing (like... homework and drawing) that I like to use instant-communication whenever. Maybe that's why I never know what's going on with my friends because I'm never physically there. Therefore, my life has shrunk to shopping on Mafia Wars and hoping someone will be my buddy if I gift them a motorcycle.

    Hopefully, school can help me come out of isolation. This is just too sad.

Saturday, 08 August 2009

  • "Trying is the fist step to failure."

    "Trying is the first step to failure" says Homer Simpson. As a student, I don't fully agree with that quote, but when I see how hard my SAT prep center tries to waste my time, I must say that Homer does have a point.  

    At this center I go to for SAT prep, we must compelte our homework and pass our vocabulary quizes in order to avoid thirty minute detentions. After several weeks of SAT class, I have 120 minutes of detention - now maybe 150 minutes since I didn't bother to study for today's quiz.

    Hey, I get full score on the vocabulary portion of most of my practice tests simply by process of elimination and from the words that I naturally recall from reading. I don't see the point in memorizing hundreds of vocabulary words I won't even use (ever) just to ace one portion of the test I'm already acing!

    Still, homework is probably the only rule I'm not butting heads with. The only reason I bother with homework is because it actually gives me practice questions for reading comprehension and math and opportunities to practice writing essays. However, simply marking answers in the homework packet won't cut for the prep center. We must transfer all the answers onto another piece of paper, typed. Yea, this isn't a lot of work, but I hate busy work that I won't gain anything from, especially during the summer.

    It's just that those who coordingate these rules look at us as a mass of little elves working for the SAT Santa. I refuse to follow these useless regulations that completely ignores my individual needs. Simply put, I'm going against the system primarily because its not for me.

    So, back to my first point. My SAT prep center has failed in getting me to cooperate.

Saturday, 01 August 2009

  • Yearbook Practice Page

      I wrote this for my yearbook (yes! I'm on Yearbook!) practice page, some summer assignment where we have to write and design a layout for our summer photos. Because of privacy reasons, I *-ed out some personal info of where I live and my friends' last names.

         For most of my summer, I was cooped up in my room studying for the SAT. Every weekday, I went to ACI Academy for SAT class at nine o'clock in the morning, and wouldn’t be home until one thirty in the afternoon. After lunch, I would do my SAT homework until dinnertime, before which I would manage to squeeze in time to play my piano pieces - once. After dinner, I would go to Tae Kwon Do class, and come home sweaty and aching. Then I’d isolate myself again to do summer homework from school making my everyday bedtime around midnight. I was tired.
      
         Luckily, occasional activities with my friends and family relieved me of this misery.

         Afraid I might become sedentary from constantly sitting at the desk, my family persuaded me on a Saturday to wake up at eight and attend activities at the Great Park. At first I was reluctant to go, but by the time we left the park, I flew a kite, watched an amazing wind walking show, planted turnips in a ball of soil, and made a close relationship with the petting zoo's goat. 

         I was also in touch with my very good friends, Tiffany *** and Marcella ***, over the summer. Taking the Fourth of July fireworks at ****** High stadium as a rare opportunity to gather, Tiffany suggested that the three of us celebrate our nation's birthday together. At the stadium, I kindly shared kettle popcorn with Marcella and then kindly finished her funnel cake. At night, we enjoyed a breathtaking fireworks show and afterwards promised each other to watch the new Harry Potter movie together. 
        
         Of course, yearbook activities were one of my favorite events of the summer. I enjoyed every meeting, for they were all an early creativity boost for our big project. My fellow yearbookers and I bonded as we climbed on rough rocks, roasted marshmallows and hotdogs near the fire, and jumped off low walls. I was also very pleased with my notebook cover that I created at the ARTbar in a very beautiful area in Santa Ana. In other words, we had loads of fun.

    Yea... it's not very good since I wrote it at like... one in the morning.